I think if my blog could be taken away from me due to neglect……it would be understandable. It’s October! I can’t even believe it.
The kids have been back to school for weeks. We’ve had our first conferences. Costumes are in, decorations are going up and I feel like it’s still summer. Maybe that’s because it’s a nice 75 degrees, sunny and hot today.
I’ve said for years this year with both kids would be the year of me. So far I’ve managed to redecorate a guest room, get a storage room in order, and find lot’s of projects to add to my list but maybe not accomplish all at once.
We have a ton going on between soccer, lacrosse, ballet, my never ending volunteering and basically life. As I sat down after a game today to send some emails out, I thought how nice it would be if I got to just hang out on a Saturday without kids activities. But, then I quickly thought…..these days do go by quickly. One day we really will be on our own on a Saturday while kids are in college….out of the house. I don’t want to wish these days away.
It was an interesting week. It’s been 4 years since we lost Cooper. This was the first year that I woke up without dread in my heart and fear of how I would deal with the day. Time doesn’t let you forget. Time allows you to grieve and grow. I saw a quote recently that was along the lines of “I asked God why he was taking me through the water. He replied because your enemy can’t swim.” It’s stuck with me. I believe if God takes you through it, he sees you through it. I go back to that you have to have faith and that if you want to be blessed in life, you have to realize it can’t all be good. Losing a child is hard. It didn’t just hurt for me, but my husband, and our children. We are a closer family for it. We surround ourselves with people that supported us then, and continue to four years later.
We were handed a storm on that day 10/11/12. We came out different people. I don’t know why God gave us that storm. I don’t know why a lot of the things happened at that time. We’ve tried to remember the lessons we’ve learned, and help others if we can.
So here we are in the middle of fall and looking forward to all that have to be thankful for.
We are putting up the Halloween decorations today, and I am secretly trying to get myself together for Christmas. It’s like 70???? days until Christmas? I’ve started thinking of gift ideas. I need to bite the bullet and actually buy some gifts! It’s going to sneak up on us.
We had contemplated going away the Saturday after Thanksgiving. Flights are grossly priced! We had thought about going away in a week and do a surprise Disney trip. Thank goodness we didn’t! Friends were there with lines that were 180 minutes long. Can you imagine?!?!?!?!
Now I am just quietly getting Advent wreathes together, trying to make sure I have enough wrapping paper, and plotting out what decorations to do and not to do. I’m not going to lie, if I could put up a real tree today that would last until December 31st, I’d do it.
In cleaning out the storage room I found out that I may only have 50 to 60 rolls of assorted Christmas ribbon. It’s a disease. I’m cutting myself off until I use it all up. It may take 5 years!
Bubba turns 6 soon. If he asked for one Lego he asked for ten. And he doesn’t understand why he can’t do more of the models that are for people age 16 and older. Bless him.
This is my favorite time of year! I am certain there are a lot of brides in Colorado this fall, that have been pleased as punch with the weather. If they were taking photos today they would be standing under yellow leaves falling from the trees. It’s gotta be one of the prettiest weekends in Denver! I love it.
Happy Fall! I’ll try to blog again before Easter.